The last two days have been full of beautiful spring sunshine. I was determined that Oliver should get to have some of it, so with the nurse's help Joel and I moved him and all of his equipment across the living room to reach the front door, where we happily sat as watched the girls play in the yard. We did this yesterday and today. It was so nice to have him outside.
Oliver has noticeably declined today. He listless, as if he is in a deep, continuous sleep with minimal reaction to any stimulus, and in general just looks very sick. We are so thankful that he still is very peaceful and seems to be very comfortable. We were blessed to be visited by a few friends throughout the day. For me, as a die-hard extrovert, it is very good for me to have people around, even during such crazy painful and confusing times like this.
Besides sitting outside with him for a while, Joel has been reading the Bible and praying with him and I have enjoyed singing hymns to him (with loud accompaniment by Fernando Ortega - I don't want to cause Oliver pain by me just singing acapella - no, that's me being sarcastic in my own pain, it is really because I can't get through most of the songs I want to sing to him on my own without breaking up).
Tomorrow is Easter, and the crazy beautiful redemption and love we celebrate tomorrow some how includes our story. Our story feels so big and huge in my soul that it is hard to think of anything else, yet the God of Abraham, Issac and Jacob has a story that is as big as the whole of time and space. And he knows how it will end. And he knows the chapter we are in this very moment. And as I cling to my own son, he has given up his own out of love for me.
We will continue to love our little one for as long as he has been given to us, and will praise our God who blessed us with him.
Oliver has noticeably declined today. He listless, as if he is in a deep, continuous sleep with minimal reaction to any stimulus, and in general just looks very sick. We are so thankful that he still is very peaceful and seems to be very comfortable. We were blessed to be visited by a few friends throughout the day. For me, as a die-hard extrovert, it is very good for me to have people around, even during such crazy painful and confusing times like this.
Besides sitting outside with him for a while, Joel has been reading the Bible and praying with him and I have enjoyed singing hymns to him (with loud accompaniment by Fernando Ortega - I don't want to cause Oliver pain by me just singing acapella - no, that's me being sarcastic in my own pain, it is really because I can't get through most of the songs I want to sing to him on my own without breaking up).
Tomorrow is Easter, and the crazy beautiful redemption and love we celebrate tomorrow some how includes our story. Our story feels so big and huge in my soul that it is hard to think of anything else, yet the God of Abraham, Issac and Jacob has a story that is as big as the whole of time and space. And he knows how it will end. And he knows the chapter we are in this very moment. And as I cling to my own son, he has given up his own out of love for me.
We will continue to love our little one for as long as he has been given to us, and will praise our God who blessed us with him.
We are praying right now for you guys. Crying too. Love you
ReplyDeleteSobbing and deep in prayer for you all!
ReplyDeletePraying for all of you. May our loving God wrap his arms around you and give you peace and comfort.
ReplyDeleteDear Sonya and Joel. I have been following your story through your mom and dad. I have been praying and have many FB friends praying, many of who were friends of your mom and dad in college. Our hearts break for little Oliver, for you his dear parents, and for his sisters, and for all who love him. In the background is playing the song I Will Rise again. So much comfort in the midst of deep, deep pain. I will continue to pray and cry with you.
ReplyDeleteSonya and Joel...."And as I cling to my own son, he has given up his own out of love for me." Beautifully said. So tenderly profound. Your testimony as a family has blessed many. Praying for you, especially now. Love, Nancy Templeton
ReplyDeletePraying and thinking of you this Resurrection morning.
ReplyDeletePraying more this morning for precious Oliver.
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